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Post by Christian Fey on Dec 22, 2008 16:01:34 GMT -6
Christian looked up towards her, admiring how innocent she seemed to be. He didn't usually care this much about girls right off the bat. Even though he wore his heart on his sleeve, it took him a few weeks to fully trust someone. And yet, he seemed to already trust her. Knowing that since she hadn't known the true meaning of love made him feel content in showing her what love could be. He could let them both have a new beginning in life and finally be happy for the first time ever.
"I'm just a normal guy that knows how to treat a woman right. Not all that amazing." he said with the shake of his head, smiling lovingly up towards her.
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Post by Bella Sky on Dec 22, 2008 16:13:45 GMT -6
"See? And you scold me for being insecure?" Bella shot back as she giggled, lying down on top of him with her arms on his chest as she caressed the muscular skin while her lips found his and moved slow but deep and passionately against his. She loved the way he kissed her so soft and sweet as if testing her out in case she was uncomfortable so he could pull away when needed. She loved that in a guy, used to the ones who shoved their tongues in her mouth or got too rough when she tried to pull away, never letting her have a choice and put in her own part of the kiss.
She slowly pulled away from his lips as she kissed down his neck, not going for seconds but instead tasting every part of him that she could to make sure he was real and mark him as hers for the time being. They both were so into each other that she knew he wouldn't mind at all..
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Post by Christian Fey on Dec 22, 2008 16:38:42 GMT -6
Christian smiled up towards her loving the way she felt on top of him. Hoping that she felt more secure in herself since he was letting her take the lead and doing what she wanted and doing what felt safe or comfortable for her. His mouth moved slowly against her, not asking nor taking anything from her. He let her make the first bold moves if she wanted. He wanted to give her this level of strength or power over him to show her that she had a mind and body of her own and he wasn't ever gonna take that from her. He felt her pull away from his lips and move to his neck, a small sigh coming from his lips.
He ran his hand slowly against her back, slidding against the curve of her thighs and over the curve of her waist slowly, milking in the intimate moment between the two of them.
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Post by Bella Sky on Dec 22, 2008 19:29:41 GMT -6
Bella moaned softly in the back of her throat as she felt his hands over her, biting down on his neck over a hickey from a few hours ago to rekindle the burning pain and pleasure in it for him as she gently lapped her tongue over it to soothe it. She breathed hot air over his skin as she kissed down his chest before moving back up to his lips, sucking his bottom lip as she grazed her hands over the long scratches down his back from her.
She felt him falter in the way his hands moved as she looked up at him, seeing him deep in thought with a glazed look in his eyes as she frowned, brushing her hand down his cheek as she kissed him lightly and pulled back, trying to get his attention. "Are you okay?" She whispered.
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Post by Christian Fey on Dec 23, 2008 21:31:37 GMT -6
Christian hadn't ment to get so caught up in his own thoughts, but he was scared. He was scared that he'd end up hurting her one way or another. Scared that he'd end up going into asshole mode and totally catch her off guard. It wasn't often that he went off or got angry enough to yell, but he had before and he had scared his past girlfriends. But they cheated on him, thats why he was so ready to kill someone. He seriously doubted she'd cheat on him, he just had a feeling she wouldn't, but he could never be too sure.
"Sorry." he whispered once she snapped him from his thoughts. "I was just thinking about different things. Spaced out. Sorry." he smiled warmly towards her.
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Post by Bella Sky on Dec 23, 2008 22:56:24 GMT -6
Bella frowned as she stared into his curious and doubtful eyes, having a feeling things were not as they seemed at the moment. Her stomach did flips as she wondered if he regretted sleeping with her or worse, if he thought she sucked or wasn't worth it or something along those lines that would douse her in insecurity once again that she'd finally gotten over the most of in the past year. She would hate to go back to that girl she used to be, so scared of her own shadow and vulnerable enough to where everybody hurt her on a constant basis. She needed to see that he was good, and that he was different than the others.
"I'm sorry. I just wanted to know if you were okay," She said quietly as she shrugged, feeling bad that she'd scared him out of it and interrupted him.
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Post by Christian Fey on Dec 23, 2008 23:10:16 GMT -6
Christian noticed the all the sudden change in attitude after he had said what he did. Now he was even more scared of hurting her, hoping that whatever he said didn't hint to the wrong thing. He felt himself become slightly nervous as he heard her out, sighing softly under his breath. Shit, he had upset her in some way already. It wasn't his intentions. This was exactly what he was afraid about. She had already been threw a lot as it was, he didn't want to be on her list of men who had fucked her over.
"I'm sorry if I upset you. I didn't mean to. I was just....thinking about things."
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Post by Bella Sky on Dec 26, 2008 22:35:39 GMT -6
"You didn't upset me. I just..." Bella sighed softly as she wet her lips, brushing her pink and blonde streaked bangs out of her eyes as she looked up at the mostly pink fringe in thought. "I want to know straight out if you regret...what we did or actually, if you regret that it was with me. I mean, did I do everything you like?" She hated sounding so weak and fragile, knowing she was more vulnerable than she allowed him or anyone but Coy to see but she needed to know the truth. The truth always hurt but not as much as a lie did, and she'd learned that so much the past few years.
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Post by Christian Fey on Dec 26, 2008 22:49:06 GMT -6
Christian stared towards her in shock and disbelife. How could she even dream of asking him such a question? It almost offended him, but it didn't, of course. Knowing what she had been threw he knew this was her vulnerable side coming threw. He sighed as he placed his finger under her chin, lifting her head up to look in her eyes. "You did nothing wrong, Bella. Nothing." his tone was stern, yet gential. He needed to get threw to her that there was nothing wrong with her. Those dicks she had called her boyfriends in the past turned her into the person she was today. He knew her true self had yet to shine threw.
"I don't regret it, either. I was thinking about you, but not in a bad way like you think. I just...wanna treat you right and I'm a little scared I won't live up to the expectations. Not saying I wanna chicken out or anything. I'm just nervous. Thats all." he explained.
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Post by Bella Sky on Dec 26, 2008 23:04:32 GMT -6
Bella wished she had been left alone but he had made her look at him, making her break from her wall she kept trying to push between her heart and her exterior to keep her emotions safe from harm. She swallowed hard as he spoke, tears burning her eyes as she listened to him closely, intently staring at him as she searched his eyes to see any lie or joke in them but found none. Nothing but the sincerity he held within him for her.
"What expectations? Chris, all I've ever dreamed of was the fairy tale and a long time ago, still just a kid, I found out they were only fake stories to sugarcoat the real world. They don't exist. I don't have expectations for something I don't even believe in, and you're the best thing so far so really, don't worry yourself," She said honestly as she kissed his cheek and held onto him tight.
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Post by Christian Fey on Dec 26, 2008 23:15:45 GMT -6
Christian could see the tears almost leak from her eyes, holding back from holding her tight against his body and letting her cry on his shoulder. She was so broken, he knew this. He had a strong feeling that they could save each other. Lord knows Chris had been to hell and back again with relationships. Never really setteling down. He heard her comments towards the fairy tale ending and nodded. He had also believed in those tales of a beautiful girl who'd end up making you fall so hard you'd be in love with them forever. It didn't seem to warn about cheating skanks that were only in the relationship for a couple of good fucks.
"I can't promise you a fairy tale, Bella. But I can promise you that I will do my very best to keep you happy. No matter what, I'll try my best." he nodded towards her reassuringly as he stroked his thumb against her defined cheek bone.
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Post by Bella Sky on Dec 26, 2008 23:27:01 GMT -6
Bella noticed the look that crossed his chiseled features as she watched him intently, wondering if he had done the same as a kid which surprised her and didn't in the same aspect. It surprised her because he seemed as if he was a hardened guy who never really imagined something so fluffy and romantic as that, and went more for the thrill rides to get a kick out of them. But then again after what she'd seen of him in just one night, barely, she knew there was much more to him and she needed to find out what that was.
"So will I. Just a fair warning; I get very messy sometimes and I tend to be a bitch on occasions because I'm moody or want something to do and I can't open up enough to let anybody in enough to love me..." She whispered fearfully, wanting him to realize all her flaws and not leave because of them later on.
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Post by Christian Fey on Dec 26, 2008 23:49:40 GMT -6
Christian looked towards her with a small smirk, hoping that him admitting to wanting the whole white wedding scene didn't totally turn her off. He had grown up in a large family so he was used to it. He had three older brothers and one younger sister. Both his brothers were out of college and his sister was just starting high school. It didn't mean he wanted to settle down and start popping out kids, God no. But he would've liked to have that intimate connection with someone just once in his young life.
"I'm not exactly a ray of sunshine on a cloudy day, myself." he pointed out, smiling charmingly towards her. "We all have our flaws, Bella. If you can accept mine I can accept yours."
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Post by Bella Sky on Dec 26, 2008 23:59:10 GMT -6
Bella smiled softly at him as he accepted her for her, not sure what to do with that since she wasn't sure what he saw in her. She shook her head as she pulled him down and kissed him, lingering longer than she'd meant as she slowly pulled away from his lips and rolled over so she was above him this time. She slid her hands over his chest as she kissed his neck, loving this man so damn much and it felt so good, being something so virgin to her. She needed more of it to know what it was like to feel this every day and not be worried about what guy she'd get home to sleep with so she wasn't alone at night.
"I accept yours, even though I barely know yours...I accept them anyway and I'm officially yours," She cooed as she looked into his eyes and smiled chastely at him.
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Post by Christian Fey on Dec 27, 2008 0:38:11 GMT -6
Christian kissed her back softly, his hand resting against her soft cheek as he felt her climb ontop of him. He couldn't help but smile at how excited she seemed to be to such a new thing. It was pretty new for him too, but he couldn't help but be excited as well. He had waited for such a long time for a girl like her. For someone he could spoil and treasure for as long as it lasted. She had no idea how much loving she was in for. He was gonna love her until she couldn't stand it anymore.
"I have many, but I don't wanna get into that now. Not when things are going this perfect."
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