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Post by Roxanne Star on Dec 21, 2008 23:26:20 GMT -6
Roxxie hadn't even realized what had happened before she noticed she was alone and he was on the edge of her bed, looking the way he did when she first say him, hard faced and confused. She slowly lifted herself up to sit, wondering what she had done wrong. Maybe he didn't want to be touched. Maybe he just wanted this to be for her and she pissed him off somehow. She looked to her side, and for some reason, felt tears start to sting her eyes. She hated being a dissapointment.
"I'm sorry.." she spoke, her voice slightly cracking as she walked over to her dresser in the room, taking out a pair of shorts and threw them on. Trying so hard not to cry but she thought she had upset or dissapointed him in some way. Even though she didn't even know him, she still felt a large sting of guilt in her stomache as she felt when her father would yell at her when he'd remind her that she was the reason her mom left. She grabbed a tank top quickly, a tear finally escaping her eyes as she looked down, trying to tell herself it was not her fault, but she felt everything was her fault one way or another.
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Post by Coy Rivers on Dec 21, 2008 23:30:45 GMT -6
Coy lifted his eyes from the floor, now erasing the memory for the time being as he realized what she was doing. His eyes hardened in guilt as he stood and quickly pulled her against him, not caring that shirt lay ripped on her bed as he held her tight and sighed, rubbing her back soothingly as he kissed the side of her head while she cried against him. Feeling her tears hit his skin sent knives through his heart, wishing he hadn't made her cry. That had been the last thing he wanted, and this was by far the worst sexual experience of his life thanks to his damn past.
"It wasn't you...I just- I rushed it, and I need to spend more time with you, that's all. It wasn't you, Roxxie, shh..." He whispered quickly, his voice thick with emotion as he held her against his chest and leaned his forehead against hers, looking deep into her big beautiful eyes as his thumb gently wiped away a falling tear.
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Post by Christian Fey on Dec 21, 2008 23:35:03 GMT -6
Christian noticed her sudden change in mood and felt a slight sting of guilt in his stomache. He didn't mean to bring up bad memories. People shouldn't have hurt her like this. It always seemed to happen to the beautiful ones. The ones who were beautiful inside and out, that is. He could relate a bit. He had been blindsided so many times he couldn't even count how many anymore. Thats why he wasn't a relationship guy. He'd give his heart, only to have some bitch walk all over it and cheat on him with someone who was more jocky or badass. he had always been the art/emo guy, but there was so much more to him than just that.
"I'm sorry. I didn't mean to pry, I just don't understand how anyone could be mean to you." he said with a slightly shrug. "People are dicks, but don't worry, there are a few decent people left on this earth. As hard as that is to believe."
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Post by Roxanne Star on Dec 21, 2008 23:43:47 GMT -6
Roxxie didn't want him to hold her, or care about if she was crying or not. She wanted him to leave her alone, but he didn't, and in a weird sence, she knew she needed him with her right now otherwise she'd be tempted to releave her pain the way she used to back then. She sighed against his chest, letting his scent fill her senses and calm her down. She didn't mean to get so emtional so quickly, but she was so scared that she had done something to make him mad and she hated being the reason. She blinked the rest of her tears away as she heard his words, her blue eyes glancing up towards his sadly.
"I didn't mean to cry, just....I didn't want to dissapoint you. I thought I upset you and...." she sighed, glancing to her side. "I used to get punished for being a dissapointment, okay? I didn't want to tell you that, but there's a lot about me that I don't let people know. I'm a mistake, I know this, everyone knows it. You shouldn't be with a girl like me, Coy, I'm no good."
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Post by Bella Sky on Dec 21, 2008 23:44:05 GMT -6
Bella shook her head quickly, shoving her mask on as she hid her emotions once again and forced a small smile to light her face. "It's no biggie. Just so used to just sex and you're different, so it's a bit scary but I don't want to lose you either." She looked into his eyes as she stroked his cheek, pulling the blanket up over her chest and his back as she pulled him back down to lie down on top of her, loving the feeling of his body on hers as she closed her eyes and moved her fingers delicately through his sweaty hair.
"I know this sounds very freaky right now, considering we just met but promise me you won't leave me? Please? Because this time I couldn't stop my heart from getting in it and I can't be hurt...I can't," She croaked softly as she looked at him pleadingly, needing him so bad in her life.
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Post by Christian Fey on Dec 21, 2008 23:53:34 GMT -6
Christian heard her out, knowing exactly where she was coming from. He understood her more than what he was probably supposed to. He knew what it was like to put your heart out there just to have it broken over and over again. He wore his heart on his sleeve, as they say, and was many time minipulated by little whores that only wanted to use him for a quick fuck. Thats why he didn't trust many people as well, why he was a loner. He hated the way the world had become and the people in it.
"I promise." he spoke softly, understanding why she needed to hear this. He'd try to live up to this promise as well.
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Post by Coy Rivers on Dec 21, 2008 23:55:21 GMT -6
"Hey, enough!" Coy said firmly as he held her face in his hands, her tears gently lining where his hands met her skin but he ignored them as he stared into the eyes that were releasing them along with the pain inside. He couldn't believe how much he felt for this girl and how bad he wanted to be the one to take away her pain and misery, and be the one to give her everything she never had. He almost felt guilty for doing this to Riley, but he knew she'd been long gone for years now and was never coming back except in his memories. He needed to learn to let go of those, too.
"I'm here for you and with you, okay? I won't leave. I swear to you, I won't leave....ever," He whispered so softly, his voice could barely be heard by any human as he closed his eyes and kissed her gently, showing her the love and need that she searched for as he cradled her frail body in his strong arms. He never wanted to let her go.
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Post by Bella Sky on Dec 21, 2008 23:58:33 GMT -6
Bella gazed into his eyes to make sure he was for real and not making any promises to stay the night or be there for her and end up turning away or making her out to be an asshole piece of trash like the rest of the low lifers she had fucked in her life. She slid her arms around his scratched back, one of her tendencies during sex if she ever got rough, and kissed his neck as she closed her eyes and enveloped the moment they were in with the air of new love breaking shattered pasts around them.
"...thank you..." She whispered fervently a moment later as she sighed, breathing him in as she lay comfortably with her body pinned beneath his as she listened to him breathe for a long while to soothe her aching heart, trying to get used to this new experience.
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Post by Roxanne Star on Dec 22, 2008 0:06:53 GMT -6
Roxxie tried to warn him, tell him that she was everything he didn't need, but he wouldn't have it. She wished she didn't feel this way about herself, but she had been so brainwashed into thinking she was a good for nothing peice of shit that wasn't even good enough to lick dirt off the floor. Her aunt tried to help her with this, even her theripist, but the feelings never went away, and she still blamed herself for everything wrong that ever happened to anyone she loved. She looked towards him once he started to speak, inside wanting to shout that he was lieing but for some reason she believed him.
She kissed him back gentally, closing her eyes as well, sucking back the rest of her tears as she placed her hand softly against his cheek softly. She pulled away from the sweet kiss slowly, opening her eyes slowly as she looked towards him with cauious eyes, wondering what she should do or say.
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Post by Christian Fey on Dec 22, 2008 0:12:54 GMT -6
Christian saw her hesitant eyes, knowing she was trying to read if he was for real or not. He wasn't a liar. He wouldn't lie to anyone, especially her. He couldn't believe how strongly he felt towards her so quickly and how badly he wanted to prove her wrong about love. He knew he could love her, he wanted to love her. If she gave him the chance he would love her with all his heart, but first they needed to get to know each other better. He moved to lay on his side, pulling her body against his to comfort her more.
"So, I guess this means we're going on a date?" he smirked towards her just to cheer her up a bit, his hand resting against her waist softly. He looked into her eyes and let out a content sigh, loving the way the night seemed to end on such a beautiful note.
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Post by Coy Rivers on Dec 22, 2008 0:24:23 GMT -6
Coy nuzzled his nose lightly against hers to try and make her smile as he caressed his hands through her hair, attempting to calm her down as he watched her begin to slowly relax with him being there and with the fact that he wouldn't leave or yell like the rest she'd dealt with in her life. He hated knowing she had been forced to be like this from how people had treated her. It killed him to see such a beautiful, bright young girl be so damaged on the inside and crying on the out for help when nobody would seem to give it to her. He planned to be that person.
"Lie down and I'll hold you, okay?" He murmured as he laid her down and laid down beside her on his back, letting her lean on his chest as he brushed his fingers through her hair and down her back, repeating the process as he began to hum a slow quiet melody of a song he was trying to write but had no lyrics to, just the melody. He had an idea, though, that now that he had her, the lyrics would be easy.
(btw once he writes it, the melody is Let Me Sign from Twilight -such a sad song- and he'll write it about her lol)
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Post by Bella Sky on Dec 22, 2008 0:28:43 GMT -6
Bella took comfort in the gentle way he held her, as if wanting to protect her from not only the cruel world around her but herself as well. She was her own worst enemy, after all. She closed her eyes and laid her head against his shoulder as she breathed quietly into his neck, breathing in the sweet scent of their sex mixed with perfume and cologne and exhaling her pain, eventually letting it calm her completely as she giggled when she heard him, peeking her eyes open with an adorable smile on her face.
"Yes, we're going on a date. I guess out to a diner or something once we get our schedules set tomorrow," She said as she shrugged, not really minding where they went as long as she got to spend more time with this god of a man on earth and got to know him better so she could hopefully overcome her fears of commitment.
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Post by Roxanne Star on Dec 22, 2008 0:36:47 GMT -6
(Ah! I looooove that song! Such a pretty song) Roxxie didn't understand, couldn't for the life of her understand why she was so relaxed in his arms. He was a guy, just another guy. No, he wasn't. He actually cared, it was so strange. They just met and yet she felt like she had known him for years and he acted the same. It was so weird. Everything about this moment and the moments that led up to this were strange, yet so damn comforting to Roxanne that she couldn't even comprihend the last time she felt this safe.
She sniffed as she laid against Coy, her cheek against his chest as she closed her eyes, letting the melody he was humming sooth her. Even though he spoke no words, she could tell his voice was just as gorgeous and pure as he was on the outside. She nuzzled herself against his body, feeding on his warmth, wondering to herself if he was the thing she had been searching for her whole life. That prince charming character she wished existed but never happened.
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Post by Christian Fey on Dec 22, 2008 0:45:03 GMT -6
Christian leaned his cheek against the top of her head, kissing her pink and blond mixture of hair softly. He was glad she was giving him the chance to show her how a girl should be treated. He wanted to take her doubts and fears and throw them out the window. She deserved the world in his eyes, and all be damned if he didn't show her the world one country at a time. He ran his fingers slowly against her back, soothing her the best he could as he caught a wiff of her scent of perfume and smiled, the vanilla musk was a scent he loved.
"Dinner, yes. I'm pretty sure I'm free tomorrow around 7." he pointed out, suddenly wondering something. "Wait, I don't even know what your major is." he laughed softly, glancing down towards her. "What are you here for?" he asked as he kept running his hand against her back, rubbing in small circles.
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Post by Coy Rivers on Dec 22, 2008 0:46:31 GMT -6
Coy glanced down at her after an hour as he saw that her breathing was deep and leveled, meaning she had dozed off finally and gotten her mind off of everything. He sighed as he rubbed his lips together, the taste of her lips and her core still on his tongue as his blood heated at the memory. He bit his lip as his hand idly danced over her back through the tee she had thrown on during her breakdown, thinking over everything and wondering if he was up for this. If he was up for committing again, let alone letting her into his life and trying not to mess hers up anymore.
He looked down at her as he watched her sleep. How her lips pouted, how her eyes occasionally danced before calming down, how her back rose up and down and her hair fanned out on the bed around her...she was so beautiful in all her naturalistic ways. He couldn't believe he'd found someone so pure in every aspect he could think of. He smiled to himself at his victory as he kissed her hair gently with the softest kiss and closed his eyes, wrapping his arm around her with his other hand on his chest next to hers and her face as he soon fell asleep with her, the bourbon and stress over everything that day and night dragging him down into a deep sleep...
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